Sunday, June 5, 2011
When you just don't like your kid
When I was a child, my mom often told us, "You always love your kids, but you don't always like them." I never understood what she was talking about-and never gave it much thought because I figured she was talking about my sister, not me.
I get it mom!
I do not like my daughter right now...at all! She has been rude, bossy, disrespectful, demanding, whiny and downright a PILL! She has been all these things- but also acting helpless, weak and needy all at the same time. It is as if the world revolves around her, and no one else matters. She wants what she wants, and throws a fit when she doesn't get it. YUCK!!!
If this kid belonged to someone else, I would think she was a complete brat, and try to withhold judgement about what type of parenting (or lack thereof) that was going on at home. I admit, I haven't been the ideal parent with her lately, and take my share credit for the negativity in the house. I am worn down from correcting, redirecting and modeling appropriate ways of speaking. So, I am sarcastic right back. I have been short tempered, and have been praising her brother like crazy (because in my house if you aren't being the "bad one" you work extra hard at being an angel because my kids are incredibly competitive).
I can't help it, I just don't like her behavior. I angers me! I don't yell at my kids, I never demean them or disrespect them-and I have zero tolerance when they do it to me, or anyone else for that matter. My husband says he is moving out when she is 16, as he sees this as a preview for ugliness between us that is yet to come.
She is six.
I know this too shall pass, and she is going through some difficult phase that I would rather never repeat-EVER. But there will be other phases-with her and with her brother. All I can do now is love her. Love her through this ugliness, and love myself and my imperfections when I don't respond like I am suppose to. We will get through this, and I will like her again. I know this to be true...
because my mom likes my sister (and me)!