Thursday, December 29, 2011
I AM MISSING LIFE AROUND ME!
When I reflect back on 2011, I remember spending a lot of time wanting, longing, wishing and planning. Wanting a bigger house, more clients, a bigger paycheck. Longing for my husband to stop snoring, my kids to be calmer and sleep more. Wishing for my dog to stop shedding and for the many piles of laundry, toys and crap all over my house to go away. And planning about how I was going to "fix" all of it.
I DON'T REMEMBER BEING VERY GRATEFUL OR APPRECIATING WHAT I DO HAVE.
I had my moments. Those sweet Hallmark moments-even days-when everything was flowing and effortless. I was thankful on those days. But not all the days/weeks/months in-between. On all the in between days I complained and made a plan on how to "fix it" and lost my appreciation. I feel like 2011 was a year for discovering what I didn't like, setting goals and looking toward the future-but missing what was right in front of me.
I have felt this imbalance for the last couple of months and have done a ton of reading and reflecting around the ideas of mindfulness and the power of positive thought. So... for 2012, I am not taking on any new projects, making a plan on how I can get more of something or fix a problem. I am entering this New Year with fresh eyes and a new perspective about what I have all around me-that has always been there-and that I have been missing.
I am going to practice mindfulness (yes, it takes practice) and be very aware of my thoughts-and the power they have over my mood, health and overall perspective of life. I am going to do less, experience more and find my happy calm spot. I won't be perfect. I will find myself all in my head again- forgetting what I am doing in the moment. I will hit a patch of negativity and complaints I am sure. But, when I do- I will do so without judgement, but with a curious eye and wonder of how I can bring it back to the present positive moment.
What are your plans for the New Year?
Will you be doing something new or cutting something out?
I would love to hear about it!!!